So this past month and half life has been a little crazy for me.
I found out that I am pregnant which wasn't planned at all in human terms. I would know because I know everything that happen. But God had a different plan as He always does.
My father-in-law is very sick. He has a probable diagnose of ALS. It has been a very long process both watching him slowly declining in his health to the countless doctors and appointments it has taken him to get to even this point. It really tears at me to see him and my poor mother-in-law like this. My prayer for them is that they will find hope and peace in knowing where my father-in-law is going when he dies as they go through their grieving process. It is also really hard on my husband even though he is a private person.
My marriage is also going through a hard time. I have come to realize that my relationship personally with my husband has been mostly based off of my awful addiction to pleasing people. I am finding out that I can't please him without first being completely satisfied in Christ. The verse God has brought to my attention is Philippians 4:11-14
Not that I speak in regard to need, for I have learned in whatever state I am, to be content: 12 I know how to be abased, and I know how to abound. Everywhere and in all things I have learned both to be full and to be hungry, both to abound and to suffer need. 13 I can do all things through Christ[b] who strengthens me.
I desire to be content when things are going good but also when things are unpleasant and uncomfortable. If you look up the Greek word for strengthens it means roughly increasing strength. Christ is constantly increasing my strength to be content. It isn't an one time deallo. It is constant. This is my prayer for the coming months.
So with all of this going on, I am taking a break from my blog. Not sure how long but for right now, I am going to sign off. I hope to still read my favorite bloggers out there for some encouragement and connection.
So I want to end giving you an link of my favorite Christmas song that I wrote about last year. I am again listening to it over and over just like last year. Pure gospel and I am loving it!
Merry Christmas!
linking up with Jenifer #tellhisstory and Holley coffee for your heart
Dear friend, I am SO sorry you are going through such a difficult time. Bless your heart. I do trust Jesus to help your father-in-law and mother-in-law through this awful ordeal. CONGRATULATIONS on your pregnancy! I couldn't help but feel as I read your words that GOD is SO in this and wants this child to be born and at this moment in time. I wish I could just give you a big hug...trusting Jesus to do that and to hold you extra close. I will miss your sweet blog, but I am thankful you are able to pull away and focus on what matters most to you at this time. If you would care to, please email me privately, as I would love to keep in touch with you , if possible. God bless you, my friend.
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ReplyDeleteOh friend! I am so sorry you are experiencing this difficult season! I have to believe that you will emerge stronger from these tests and my prayer is that you'll find restoration for your marriage and joy in your new baby and grace for the illness of your father-in-law. Friend I am praying for you! I'm so glad to have met you on this blogging journey and I will be waiting for your return to this online space! xoxox
Praying for you Kristina and that you would find rest in Him both in the physical and spiritual. Congratulations on your little one. Much love and hugs to you. If you need anything, please don' hesitate to ask.
ReplyDeleteHi, Kristina! I just had you on my mind and wanted to stop and say hi, and that I am thinking of you! I hope you are feeling well and do trust your father-in-law's health has improved. Take care, and know that you are loved and missed here. :)
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